i know the reason!!!

after I blogged today morning, i went to sleep..
dun feel lyk going to church suddenly after I woke up..

feeling too lethargic i guess..
Hmm, well, I enjoyed myself during my church 145th thanksgiving..
it was truly an eye opening thanksgiving..
I think that jonlim has such a talent! he really deco the coverpage of the church's history book well!! CO0L mann!

I think that bethesda children sang so well!! their voice are POWER!! high pitches sustained well!! although there are a few minor errors in pitching, i guess that the overall performance was really great! the song has a very touchy tune + the girls sang it so sweetly, it really made me feel lyk crying.. heh!

There was something very special about today's item!! there was a scotish pipe!! so cool!! haha! ((:

after that we had a sumptous dinner buffet!! so nice n i really enjoyed the company and fellowship! (: sheenah fed me the mango pudding!! felt so honored! :D haha!

yes!1 indeed today was a very happy day cos 145th anniversay was such a happy occasion.. During the recommitment, when everyone's head is down n closing our eyes to listen to the still small voice of our Lord..i had this thought..

"My mind is full of JJ..how can God ever enter into my life completely when JJ is there occupying most of the place in my heart? i wondered wad will really motivates me.."

Truly, God gave me the answer..how?
it happened when i was on the way home..my mum shared with me that aunty Geok Kim has shared wif her class the story of me, the girl who gave her seashell..
I realised how important I were..people could make me their example..
If I am with JJ, whos a non-christian, how will others think of me? BAD EXAMPLE indeed..becos most likely I noe for myself, if im together with him, i would surely led a life not glorifying the Lord..
I may not see that my life is not glorifying Him, but others may see it..
Aunty Geok Kim watches me grow..from primary one till now..and in the future..if she sees that I've backslided, she would be very disappointed...what's more the Lord? He watches over me all the time..

I think..I should just give everything to the Lord..and stop confusing myself whether JJ is the right one for me in the future a not..

YEAH..so I shall let "nature takes its course"..(let God work on it)
so that i could STOP worrying! yup!! kinda feeling that my load is lighter..but still felt kinda reluctant to let go of him...mabbe cos i missed him just too much..Just so much..


WELL, anw..
bye readers! :D