he said, " sorry" but "hugs",,,

i have no idea where to start...
but unfortunately my dear readers..this blog is going to stop here..
it's going to end at this post and there would not be other updates on this blog anymore.

I decided not to delete this blog because, if i start to get nostalgic again..I would want to come back and read it..

-=FirMaMent=- VVIP Preview Launch of THE GALE @ FLORA ROAD		*||`SMilE`||* `stArfish` onlyalifelivef0rHim,isalifew0rthwhile		so i win in being dirty
7/13/2009		1:00:49 PM		*||`SMilE`||* `stArfish` onlyalifelivef0rHim,isalifew0rthwhile				so u're not
7/13/2009		1:00:56 PM		*||`SMilE`||* `stArfish` onlyalifelivef0rHim,isalifew0rthwhile				a HORNY bastard
7/13/2009		1:01:13 PM		-=FirMaMent=- VVIP Preview Launch of THE GALE @ FLORA ROAD				lol
7/13/2009		1:01:20 PM		-=FirMaMent=- VVIP Preview Launch of THE GALE @ FLORA ROAD				i nv seen it as a bad thing
7/13/2009		1:01:56 PM		*||`SMilE`||* `stArfish` onlyalifelivef0rHim,isalifew0rthwhile				y
7/13/2009		1:02:11 PM		-=FirMaMent=- VVIP Preview Launch of THE GALE @ FLORA ROAD				y isit bad
7/13/2009		1:02:21 PM		-=FirMaMent=- VVIP Preview Launch of THE GALE @ FLORA ROAD				its part of human to be horny
7/13/2009		1:02:26 PM		*||`SMilE`||* `stArfish` onlyalifelivef0rHim,isalifew0rthwhile				i didnt say its bad wad
7/13/2009		1:02:50 PM		-=FirMaMent=- VVIP Preview Launch of THE GALE @ FLORA ROAD				lol
7/13/2009		1:03:03 PM		-=FirMaMent=- VVIP Preview Launch of THE GALE @ FLORA ROAD				u hav no idea how it feels
7/13/2009		1:03:05 PM		-=FirMaMent=- VVIP Preview Launch of THE GALE @ FLORA ROAD				so yeaa
7/13/2009		1:03:15 PM		*||`SMilE`||* `stArfish` onlyalifelivef0rHim,isalifew0rthwhile				ohhhhhhhh....
7/13/2009		1:03:36 PM		*||`SMilE`||* `stArfish` onlyalifelivef0rHim,isalifew0rthwhile				are u implying that u...
7/13/2009		1:03:43 PM		-=FirMaMent=- VVIP Preview Launch of THE GALE @ FLORA ROAD				i am not a virgin..
7/13/2009		1:03:56 PM		*||`SMilE`||* `stArfish` onlyalifelivef0rHim,isalifew0rthwhile				OKAY
7/13/2009		1:04:04 PM		-=FirMaMent=- VVIP Preview Launch of THE GALE @ FLORA ROAD				lol
7/13/2009		1:04:11 PM		-=FirMaMent=- VVIP Preview Launch of THE GALE @ FLORA ROAD				so i guess ur nt gonan talk to me already?
7/13/2009		1:04:12 PM		-=FirMaMent=- VVIP Preview Launch of THE GALE @ FLORA ROAD				lol
7/13/2009		1:04:18 PM		*||`SMilE`||* `stArfish` onlyalifelivef0rHim,isalifew0rthwhile				i will still tok
7/13/2009		1:04:24 PM		*||`SMilE`||* `stArfish` onlyalifelivef0rHim,isalifew0rthwhile				but i feel hurt
7/13/2009		1:04:31 PM		-=FirMaMent=- VVIP Preview Launch of THE GALE @ FLORA ROAD				sry..
7/13/2009		1:04:40 PM		-=FirMaMent=- VVIP Preview Launch of THE GALE @ FLORA ROAD				*hugss
7/13/2009		1:04:53 PM		*||`SMilE`||* `stArfish` onlyalifelivef0rHim,isalifew0rthwhile				thanks for being honest
7/13/2009		1:04:55 PM		-=FirMaMent=- VVIP Preview Launch of THE GALE @ FLORA ROAD				but i do it if i love the person
7/13/2009		1:05:11 PM		*||`SMilE`||* `stArfish` onlyalifelivef0rHim,isalifew0rthwhile				i seee
7/13/2009		1:05:34 PM		-=FirMaMent=- VVIP Preview Launch of THE GALE @ FLORA ROAD				still hurt?
7/13/2009		1:05:46 PM		*||`SMilE`||* `stArfish` onlyalifelivef0rHim,isalifew0rthwhile				yes
7/13/2009		1:05:53 PM		*||`SMilE`||* `stArfish` onlyalifelivef0rHim,isalifew0rthwhile				u just threw me a bomb
7/13/2009		1:05:55 PM		-=FirMaMent=- VVIP Preview Launch of THE GALE @ FLORA ROAD				sryy
7/13/2009		1:05:58 PM		*||`SMilE`||* `stArfish` onlyalifelivef0rHim,isalifew0rthwhile				HAHa
7/13/2009		1:06:00 PM		*||`SMilE`||* `stArfish` onlyalifelivef0rHim,isalifew0rthwhile				its okay
7/13/2009		1:06:31 PM		*||`SMilE`||* `stArfish` onlyalifelivef0rHim,isalifew0rthwhile				dun haf say sry if u're telling me the truth
7/13/2009		1:06:46 PM		*||`SMilE`||* `stArfish` onlyalifelivef0rHim,isalifew0rthwhile				i'd rather u be honest now den in the future
7/13/2009		1:06:55 PM		*||`SMilE`||* `stArfish` onlyalifelivef0rHim,isalifew0rthwhile				then by den u gta be really sry
7/13/2009		1:06:56 PM		*||`SMilE`||* `stArfish` onlyalifelivef0rHim,isalifew0rthwhile				haha
7/13/2009		1:06:56 PM		*||`SMilE`||* `stArfish` onlyalifelivef0rHim,isalifew0rthwhile				!
7/13/2009		1:07:06 PM		-=FirMaMent=- VVIP Preview Launch of THE GALE @ FLORA ROAD				lol
7/13/2009		1:07:30 PM		-=FirMaMent=- VVIP Preview Launch of THE GALE @ FLORA ROAD				well it comes to a pt of time when i feel that it doesn't really matter v much if a persons a virign
7/13/2009		1:31:06 PM		*||`SMilE`||* `stArfish` onlyalifelivef0rHim,isalifew0rthwhile				HAA
7/13/2009		1:31:07 PM		*||`SMilE`||* `stArfish` onlyalifelivef0rHim,isalifew0rthwhile				okay
7/13/2009		1:31:21 PM		*||`SMilE`||* `stArfish` onlyalifelivef0rHim,isalifew0rthwhile				i got debate now..for presentation
7/13/2009		1:31:25 PM		-=FirMaMent=- VVIP Preview Launch of THE GALE @ FLORA ROAD				lol
7/13/2009		1:31:25 PM		*||`SMilE`||* `stArfish` onlyalifelivef0rHim,isalifew0rthwhile				cya!
7/13/2009		1:31:27 PM		*||`SMilE`||* `stArfish` onlyalifelivef0rHim,isalifew0rthwhile				byebye
7/13/2009		1:31:27 PM		-=FirMaMent=- VVIP Preview Launch of THE GALE @ FLORA ROAD				have fun!
7/13/2009		1:31:27 PM		-=FirMaMent=- VVIP Preview Launch of THE GALE @ FLORA ROAD				cya
7/13/2009		1:31:30 PM		*||`SMilE`||* `stArfish` onlyalifelivef0rHim,isalifew0rthwhile				ok
7/13/2009		1:31:34 PM		-=FirMaMent=- VVIP Preview Launch of THE GALE @ FLORA ROAD				bb!

Thats the whole history message..
I felt that what I've blogged about for the past 24 posts are all rubbish FACTS.
but this gave me a very good reason to let go of him completely..

I dunno if he has decided to be responsible for the gal..
BUT wad i know is..
he cannot be in my heart..
i've to remove him away..
I HAVE TO!

U guys might be thinking that it's ok. I still can accept him if i wants to..it all depends on me.
But people, look at this..

His thinking is super far from me now..his actions are too hurtful to me..
he did it becos he loved her..which means that he had loved a gal when I'm still loving him..and he nvr told anything abt her to me even when i am just his friend.

The fact that he could take "this" so causally, means that he's very far far far far away from the Lord that i believed in..

(even when things happened lyk this..I hope that he'll be able to know the true Living God in the future)

and of all these things..he did no effort to explain things to me..
which means that Im totally not important in his heart..
having me to be there fore him doesn't make any difference..
Im just another person that's going to walk in..and den out of his life..
there wun be footprints in his heart..

Perhaps he doesn't want me to know to much..
but he doesn't know how important are those explanations to me..

FURTHERMORE..
I didn't avoid..I gave him chance to explain by saying that I would still continue to talk to him..
yet he's not planning to tell me immediately..

anyway..
he doesn't want to get near to me becos of my parents..
My parents did told him to stay far from me..im the one who had been hiding things from my parents about communicating with him..ALL BECAUSE I LIKED HIM..

but with all these sacrifices that I've made..it has all gone into waste..
nothing comes out of it..its nothing..("no net worth!")

Perhaps this is the lesson for me..to be "deep" girl and not a "shallow" girl when looking out for a guy..

I've got nothing to say..
all I hope was that i wouldn't let this ugly fact gets into my life..
im not believing that i'll meet him in a special day/ in a special place already..
it's all gone..

Forget about him yea? if i can't forget..

I would let it be part of my history..
.it shall be my story..
and I shall learn things from these happenings...


bye readers..
(this blog is offically closed)

WHOLE DAY AT HOME!

HEY READERS! [:

yesterday had so much happenings!

Firstly, my communication faccy said that my group's presentation was very good. for the past 3 classes that she took, it was the first time she saw such a great presentation. HAHA! she said surely we had plagiarised, but she's got no proof!! We did a 100% original work! :D

3 CHEERS TO TEAM 1 communication skills group! :DD

The science UT was so tough..out of 7 questions..i only know how to do 3 questions.

Anw, kimbereley walked to the mrt station with me..and took train with me..
We always have many things to share..
She was lucky..she's able to meet a guy that she know from the net and they went for movie! so sweet! hais..but not for me!! I nvr had this kinda of chance with JJ.

anw, my parents brought me out to the pasamalam. They bought me socks, a silver coloured court shoe and white coloured shorts :D

thats so nice of them right? love them so much! on the way home, eileen said she found her handphone! lucky her! It happened to me to think that RP's people are nice. they dun steal things and returned things. cool~ :D im starting to lyk the values of RP students.

I had a little chat with JJ at nite..it made me kinda pissed when he took so long to reply me..cos i thought he was ignoring me..but when he replied, i felt super excited( to click on the blinking orange coloured window )and happy( when i read his reply)

anw...here's the conversation:

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lol

-=FirMaMent=- VVIP Preview Launch of THE GALE @ FLORA ROAD
star fish likes water

*`SMilE`* `stArfish` onlyalifelivef0rHim,isalifew0rthwhile
no..

*`SMilE`* `stArfish` onlyalifelivef0rHim,isalifew0rthwhile
star fish lyks jonjon!

-=FirMaMent=- VVIP Preview Launch of THE GALE @ FLORA ROAD
aww

-=FirMaMent=- VVIP Preview Launch of THE GALE @ FLORA ROAD
tats so sweet!

*`SMilE`* `stArfish` onlyalifelivef0rHim,isalifew0rthwhile
hair standing on its end now rtye?

*`SMilE`* `stArfish` onlyalifelivef0rHim,isalifew0rthwhile
haha!!

*`SMilE`* `stArfish` onlyalifelivef0rHim,isalifew0rthwhile
the game in facebook WAKA-WAKA very nice to play!

*`SMilE`* `stArfish` onlyalifelivef0rHim,isalifew0rthwhile
so thrilling

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why will stand?

*`SMilE`* `stArfish` onlyalifelivef0rHim,isalifew0rthwhile
cos its not lying

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ahhaa

-=FirMaMent=- VVIP Preview Launch of THE GALE @ FLORA ROAD
but ur like is wat kinda like

*`SMilE`* `stArfish` onlyalifelivef0rHim,isalifew0rthwhile
LIKE!

*`SMilE`* `stArfish` onlyalifelivef0rHim,isalifew0rthwhile
the opposite of unlike

-=FirMaMent=- VVIP Preview Launch of THE GALE @ FLORA ROAD
zz

-=FirMaMent=- VVIP Preview Launch of THE GALE @ FLORA ROAD
go away..

*`SMilE`* `stArfish` onlyalifelivef0rHim,isalifew0rthwhile
dun wan

*`SMilE`* `stArfish` onlyalifelivef0rHim,isalifew0rthwhile
star fish lyks jonjon!

*`SMilE`* `stArfish` onlyalifelivef0rHim,isalifew0rthwhile
:D

-=FirMaMent=- VVIP Preview Launch of THE GALE @ FLORA ROAD
lol!

-=FirMaMent=- VVIP Preview Launch of THE GALE @ FLORA ROAD
okkk

-=FirMaMent=- VVIP Preview Launch of THE GALE @ FLORA ROAD
ehh

-=FirMaMent=- VVIP Preview Launch of THE GALE @ FLORA ROAD
i'm super tired nw

-=FirMaMent=- VVIP Preview Launch of THE GALE @ FLORA ROAD
i go rest first k

-=FirMaMent=- VVIP Preview Launch of THE GALE @ FLORA ROAD
huggs

-=FirMaMent=- VVIP Preview Launch of THE GALE @ FLORA ROAD
bb

*`SMilE`* `stArfish` onlyalifelivef0rHim,isalifew0rthwhile
okay byebye

*`SMilE`* `stArfish` onlyalifelivef0rHim,isalifew0rthwhile
morning

I was trying to change the topic to WAKA-WAKA game when I made the confession..but he avoided it all. But i lied to him about the like is the opp of unlike..I was kinda sad that he asked me go away, cos i didn't expected him to say that..but well, he did! Go away is a strong word..hmm, if i were in a bad mood..i would reply him,

"okay sure. if this is what u wan. I would not hold on to u already, nor I would disturb you. I will walk out of ur life..and i would not come back to you forever."

But well, I was kind and generous in my words..I repeated that I lyked him hahaha!

So much so for this conversation..

after that, i fought with 4 beetles that was found in my room.
I tot theres only 2 beetles in my room. so after chasing two beetles out of my room, i went to sleep. after a short while, i heard the beetle buzzing sound. so I hunted for the beetle and managed to find it and seek my mum's help to chase it off my room.

The same thing happened for the next bettle. and for goodness' sake, it was already 1+am. and I was still in search of the beetle. Finally i gave out! n went to sleep. I could hear the beetle's buzzle for a short while. den after that, no more sound. GREAT! i could have a peace of mind finally! slept well yesterday.

Got up early in the morning to submit my daily assignments that was dued today's afternoon. I was at home slacking..meaning, sleeping, practice a little bit of piano, reading story book, playing the facebook's game, msn chatting..yup!

now im blogging..and wanna revise enterprise skills' 6th presentation le!

BYE READERS! [:

TIRED-ED!!!

super busy today!
and dun feel lyk studying for UT
shall leave things till tomorrow

SO TIRED!

bye readers

COLOURFUL day in school!

Hey my dear READERS! (:

yeah! maths is boring..BUT today i saw wayne again!

LOL! wad a coincidence again?seems lyk im gna meet him every morning? HAHA! :D

Hmm, webcamming with korkor again! after SO long he finally starts to feel desperate to meet me. He was so "on" today about meeting me. Want me to go down to meet him during the 1st break and the 2nd break. so I went to meet him.

When i was buying the milk tea, he suddenly blinded my eyes with his hands..and i told him that I know its him and he dunnid to do that. I told him that i was about to msg him that i was buying milk tea..but I didnt know that he havent found his Hp that he lost. so..i asked him a stupid question,

"HUH? u haven't found your hp uh?"

he was lyk..,"yeah? people wanna steal ur Hp, so how are u going to find it?"

den he looked at Aiysah for agreement that I've indeed asked a stupid question.

Later I wanted to get the plastic bag from the stall vendors..but he already walked off..den i asked my friends where is he..den they said that he walked off le and he said bye to me a several times but i didnt hear it..

so paiseh! I made him lyk an idiot..thats wad he says after i went back class to webcam with him.

Den webcamming was fun cos suddenly my son appeared behind korkor and "touch" him!

den later korkor forgot to gimme back my wristband..he bite my wristband!! ARGHS!

During lesson, candace intro a very thrilling game called "WAKA-WAKA" in facebook
I think its very fun!! shall play it tmr or later! :D

During the 2nd break, korkor da-pao food with me..he told me how he kissed his galfriend..

SUCK her lips and bite it. den his gf OUCH! and bite his arms! this couple is seriously sick mann..into bite-ting! I seriously hope that my future bf wun bite me. Lyk if my future bf wanna kiss me, he can snake kiss me..or anithing...but NO BITTING! pain!

Later korkor went to my class and taught me maths..kim came my class and taught me too..

so ended up i have 2 "teachers" to teach me and they kinda debated over certain answers. But their logic is smiliar though the answers were different.

Nxt, i had UT. I think the cog UT was fine..hoping that my answers were right.

and hoping i can score :D

After the UT...hurray! my son called me and said that my korkor wanna meet me!

guess wad? the cute guy, Jun An is with them too when going back that time..so we walked to the MRT station together..

(Jun An, my son, my korkor, my new "laogong"..KIMBERLEY and me walked to mrt station together! haha) :DD

Den korkor said that he'll keep on pulling my bra stripes! He warned me not to wear that purple shirt cos can see my bra stripe..so he says if i wanna wear the purple shirt..i should wear bra! and Jun An says..NONO! I was feeling kinda of relieved that somebody stood up for me..but...guess wad? Jun An said that i might as well not wear the shirt since the shirt is the one that is loose and not the bra! soooo...I had the FED UP + WANNA-LAUGH expression on my face when he said it.

Suddenly Jun An disappeared..and I met carol! her bf looks lyk her and sounds lyk a girl...so i was shocked and in a doubt whether her bf is really a boy? too feminie le..

Den John left and straight away i saw Yihan and friends..my son was thrilled lah! cos he saw Yihan and Tsz Ying mah! haha! he arhh...wanna see chio bu everytime de.

YEP! and i took the train home happily with kim and xun :D

After I reached home and sometime later, my mum n me started arguing. she said that I was spending too much money for myself and not spending money on the right things..

C'mon? I didnt buy the train concession cos the queue was LONG and i might be late for school if i queued. As i saw korkor today, I asked him to pass 5bucks to my son cos I owed my son $ for yisiew's bdae gift. Den I kup $2 for rafi's bdae too. So left little $$..all these $$ i spent on others so as to bring them joy..its not for myself!

so i was kinda fed up..but i knew that i was in the wrong too..so I went to apologised to my mum for my #$%^&* reasoning and attitude.

After completing RJ and evaluation, i decided to do this..cropping the webcam pics together!

sent it to korkor and he says that it was cool and nice and asked me how i did it. I thanked him for the compliment..guess wad? he says nono! he should be thanking me for the memories..I mean...this sounded kinda weird? cos it sounded lyk his last words when he said that..

BTW, this is serious..korkor had acute neck pain and suspected that it was due to a serious illness..so he was thinking and assumming that his days on earth are very short le....

I mean..he's frightening himself! he havent went for a check up and he is saying all these..

Dear gracious Lord and loving Father,

I pray that you'll grant him good health and blessings that korkor will be able to be save and sound..that he wun have any serious illness and depart from Earth lyk wad he says..

Help me to clear off this thinking of his that he thinks he is going to die..let him realised that with God (Your ) and in God's (Your)power, nothing is impossible. Help him to be able to walk out of distress that he is facing now..and may his conduct be worthy of the Gospel.

In the Lord Jesus name I pray,

Amen.

BYE READERS!(:

"I am fine..with that"

A surprised morning! <3

Didn't realised that Wayne has been taking train around the same time and place as me ever since I knew him. So yea, it happened so that I met him today morning. and we took the train together to woodland yo~~

After tapping my card out of the ctrl station, I kinda pangseh him cause I went to meet up with kim n eileen as usual and den he walked to school alone. Felt kinda bad..At first I tot he was meeting his other friends at woodlands.

During cognitive class, I realised that Im working with the same three people for communication too! haha! It was kinda fun in class..cos got too much rubbish and crap talks by shu shu and the other jokers in class.

I felt that my team's presentation was kinda screwed up as suddenly my team mates included some information about the detailed analytical process that I have seriously no idea wad issit about! So heard shu shu trying to explain, and I just re-phrase it using the word interrelationship. CHEY~ right?

My class ended at 250+pm to 0300pm liddat. so i had done all the RJ, quiz, evaluation. Went to meet kim after class. HMM! guess wad? we decided to wait for eileen..we msged her..called her..went to msn to see whether she online a not...Den finally she answered our call! and SHE SAID THAT SHE'S AT THE MRT PLATFORM ALREADY!! argh! feel so upset! but well, we started to joke about she being too engrossed walking to mrt station with nevin and asked kim to not disturb their romantic date! haha!

CHEEKY right? anw, on my way home, i was so tempted to get some food home..
but well you noe, Ting ting is saving money for a pooh haversack baggy found at vivo city(:

so not much happening today yea..
JJ didnt see me online..
Korkor was emo-ing...
and I am fine with that...

bye readers

Counting my blessings...and am SURPRISED for wad the Lord hath done (:

HEY READERS! ((:

there was 1 thought of the day and one saying frm my son that has impacted me, esp my thoughts..

anw, i had this mindset of not going to sch while im in bed..
Almost overslept but thank God that my mum walked into my room..so i counted 1,2,3 in my head and climb out of my bed unwillingly. I hurried to school after that.

As usual, I took out my favourite book, "the undomestic goddess" by Sophie Kinstella out to read while travelling to school in the train. Saw an eye-candy just standing right in front of me and it starts off my morning well! haha! :D

Kim and eileen was happy chatting about kim's mum calling eileen in the morning to wake her up as a morning call. As usual, eileen was giggling all the way through. I was usually the random girl. So suddenly out of no where, I popped out and told them about how many spare thermometers I brought to school today. I even showed to them the thermometer that looks lyk a pregrancy kit that has a flexible tip. hahaha! expected them to be amused. and indeed! they were! :D

today's science module was a killer! QUESTION 11 was the killer.. why bother using the word killer? cause it kills my brain cells!..YUP! I suddenly thought of having lunch with korkor..but in the end, we didnt went for lunch together becos due to h1n1, our breaktime is different...AWWS! thats so sad isnt it? it means that I cant have lunch with korkor for a period of time! SIAN AH! ):

ah well, the presentation did went quite smoothly..though my faccy asked about question 11, Rafi helped me through (:

Everyday was indeed a new day...but i believe that today is a gift..

My son suddenly msn me whether im free after school to get gifts of my 2 darlings( yisiew n van) for their birthday. Weiming tagged along with us as he needed to get something for someone too!

So we went to causeway point and i found that weiming is as random as me..he could be humorous and lame at times too! haha! Well, I did enjoyed myself..going around to shop for bdae gifts with that two twin towers..YUP! they're super tall k? taller den me by one head's height!

Den felt kinda heart pain cos i nida spend $10 bucks in the gifts..ah well.. so much so for that... WTH am i thinking..i should consider it as a priviledge.. YEA!~

out of no where, we talked about having a woodblock father that should have small eyes too! den straightaway my son suggested korkor. Den after much discussion he said this to me..

"If you want korkor, I dun wanna make friend with you already mann.."

I asked why..

den he explained, " cause girls who lyked him are SHALLOW..meaning they only go for looks.."

I restorted, " but he got NO LOOKS!"

den he defended, "BUT he can BEATBOX!"

I have to agree with it cause those people who can beatbox are really attractive and yeah..if gals just fell for him becos of beatboxing, it really means wad kinda gal are you..So i asked myself whether i belonged to that SHALLOW category..indeed..honestly..i was kinda of..


C'mon lets get down to the facts..I didn't met JJ at all. I was attracted to him first because I felt that he was super handsome and charming..Den later was becos I lyked the way he chatted with me in msn. It's lyk we can from no where talked about something so randomly..and he can create something funny out of it..its lyk super funny! and i really did enjoyed myself!

He sent nice songs to me..The song that I've posted in my blog are mostly songs that he sent to me except for i'll fly and I'm yours. The first song that he sent to me 2 to 3 years ago is autumn in my heart, Reason(instrumental)..which is taken from a korean drama! Soon I fell in love with the song Reason..and the title speaks for itself..He's my reason to love..

yea..Sadly, I really admit it for myself that I am a "Shallow" girl..

do help me with it my dear Lord. I wanna love a guy deeply w/o being a "shallow" girl but a "deep" girl.

Had a joke to share too!

I was watching tv with my granny for quite sometimes at nite..so i felt lyk stretching out my legs as it was cramped. I accidentally knocked on the table while stretching and I began to wine. Granny asked me y i didnt cried for Mummy. I didnt answered, but i cried for mummy after she asked. I suddenly thought of something and i shared this with her,

"I asked my friend whether he was hungry. He said that I've asked a stupid question. Cause if he says that he's hungry..would I feed him with my bre*st milk?"

My granny burst out laughing and asked me why i didnt tell him this..

"tell him that becos he's not ur child so cannot bre*st feed him lah"...

Soon i linked back to my two sons of the woodblk family..wad if..my granny noes that I've 2 sons?..would that mean that I would hafta bre*st feed them?!!!?!?!?!?

YUP! thats the story..I noe it's not funny..but thats just to add a little life to my lifestory (:


that's all folks!
BYE READERS!

so much so for the "screwed up"!

hey readers!(:

Yesterday was a long day!

After the morning worship, morning ministry, sunday school, piano lesson, i went to work. WHOA! didnt expect that i can fit into ruoxi's pants so comfortably!

When the wedding is about to end, whereby I have to clear all the culteries for dessert, my hands were so tired and weak..and finally when it could not hold the tray any longer, my tray titled and DANG! the bowls were broken and dropped on my customer's chair! OMGosh!


yes...good thing ruoxi helped me to clear the bowl and that my assistant manager went to apologose to the customer. the customer didnt complaint and said that he's fine. THANK GOD!!

that was so much so for yesterday's screwed up!! went home wif my new friend chervin :D

bye readers!

with lots of love
ting

i know the reason!!!

after I blogged today morning, i went to sleep..
dun feel lyk going to church suddenly after I woke up..

feeling too lethargic i guess..
Hmm, well, I enjoyed myself during my church 145th thanksgiving..
it was truly an eye opening thanksgiving..
I think that jonlim has such a talent! he really deco the coverpage of the church's history book well!! CO0L mann!

I think that bethesda children sang so well!! their voice are POWER!! high pitches sustained well!! although there are a few minor errors in pitching, i guess that the overall performance was really great! the song has a very touchy tune + the girls sang it so sweetly, it really made me feel lyk crying.. heh!

There was something very special about today's item!! there was a scotish pipe!! so cool!! haha! ((:

after that we had a sumptous dinner buffet!! so nice n i really enjoyed the company and fellowship! (: sheenah fed me the mango pudding!! felt so honored! :D haha!

yes!1 indeed today was a very happy day cos 145th anniversay was such a happy occasion.. During the recommitment, when everyone's head is down n closing our eyes to listen to the still small voice of our Lord..i had this thought..

"My mind is full of JJ..how can God ever enter into my life completely when JJ is there occupying most of the place in my heart? i wondered wad will really motivates me.."

Truly, God gave me the answer..how?
it happened when i was on the way home..my mum shared with me that aunty Geok Kim has shared wif her class the story of me, the girl who gave her seashell..
I realised how important I were..people could make me their example..
If I am with JJ, whos a non-christian, how will others think of me? BAD EXAMPLE indeed..becos most likely I noe for myself, if im together with him, i would surely led a life not glorifying the Lord..
I may not see that my life is not glorifying Him, but others may see it..
Aunty Geok Kim watches me grow..from primary one till now..and in the future..if she sees that I've backslided, she would be very disappointed...what's more the Lord? He watches over me all the time..

I think..I should just give everything to the Lord..and stop confusing myself whether JJ is the right one for me in the future a not..

YEAH..so I shall let "nature takes its course"..(let God work on it)
so that i could STOP worrying! yup!! kinda feeling that my load is lighter..but still felt kinda reluctant to let go of him...mabbe cos i missed him just too much..Just so much..


WELL, anw..
bye readers! :D

happy birthday els! (:

sry guys,
was too tired yesterday to boot up my computer after coming back from els' surprise bdae celebration.

Anw, yesterday during class, as usual, I was feeling blue cos its communication practice module..that faccy that graded me D for that false reason. Anw, she makes me feel more blue after she said to the whole class..taking me for an example that those people who went out of class has to go back home due to A-h1n1's social responsibilites.

stupid faccy: for example Ting went out during the 1st period right?
me: i nod
stupid faccy: go home now

Soon, imran "huh"? why liddat the..den faccy explained and so on.

I love imran for that mann..Anw, i went out..TO THE TOILET! wads wrong with that? surely not becos of that I have to go home? if thats the case, the whole class should be going home..they all went toilet. isn't it? anw, I dun wan to bother about it, cos shes just taking me for an example i hope.

I feel that I am able to present better during the 3rd meeting.
but that stupid faccy didnt even look at me when im presenting when im looking at her, makingf an eye contact. Well, nvm..she look at the slides which is enuff of it.

After class, i was finding people to walk home with me..
called kim n she was going off with her friends..but i still can join her later..
called eileen, she said she was staying in school still
called son, and told him that im going off..

LOL! felt p.s. to meet him..cos very no face for gal to jio a guy for company. isn't it?
Thats the reason why i dun wanna jio korkor too..I mean if he really misses me and want to have lunch with me, he could jio me wad..why should i be the one?
he put, : "i feel that I'm not a very nice person" in his msn personal msg.
I thought about it...he's a nice guy..but he does makes me feel that i wana get away from him..
cos he was behaving to close to me and im kinda scared..dun wana let him take advantage of me. =X

Well, i think i should continue to stay as far away from him as possible. Cos for the very reason, he alrdy had a gf. YES.

Den i went home and slp on my bro's spare sofa-bed with my smelly clothes.
Woke up and went to meet my churchmates for els' bdae celebration.

WHOA!
THESE are the names of people who went!
reuben, darius, amos, nathaniel, matt, natalie, sherman, esmond, mortiza, justin, jeannie, elena, jamie, rebecca, robyn, danna, nick ong, john mark, els, claudia, tirzah.

Yup!! so many of them! 21 people worx! well, we camworhed so much and had fun throwing mor's 5 milion dollar cake at each other. The idea of asking the man who's performing at the streets to sing n playing the birthday song in guitar for els was great thou it's kinda screwed up..but we all managed to sing for her!! haha! :D the people who are on the streets watched us and smiled..SUPER HEART WARMING! i felt so happy thou its not my bdae to be able to witness the SUPER HEART WARMING scene! haha :D

els said that she bought extra tee..facial foam and etc cos she would expect smashing of cake on her face thinggy would happen. LOL

Shall upload the fun pics when i got the pics.

bye readers! :D

N0stalgic :D

Don't feel lyk blogging the details..

feel kinda slpy...

so thats why yesterday didnt blog. haha

gna slp soon..

anw, enjoy the pics!
THIS was taken yesterday..

I had the most fun lunch with mutous , me xiue, yisiew, clarence and yongxun yesterday

LUNCH WITH MUTOUS!! (:

fAIR or not FAIR?

My daughters making heart shapes

TODAY'S WAS THE DINNER REUNION! 22 people attended and responded to my msg! :D

I'll edit when I have the whole group pics! seeya n nitez people!

SLEEP EARLY!

kay, this the whole group picture :D
my son helped me to take the pic wan

it was a day of grace..Blessed by my Lord <3

I love my Lord and JJ :D