Letting go of him is hard becos I always believe that we'll meet on a special day in a special place..

Hi my dear readers!(:

lets start the my lifestory with today morning!!

Once I got off the bed, I went to the piano and start to sight read the ragtime music.
It was around 7.35+am in the morning. Den I realised that i could sight read the whole piece well so i went off to brush n wash up myself.

As usual, we were LATE for morning worship..
2 weeks ago, we were late becos of me..
1 week ago, we were late becos of my sis..
today we were late becos of my bro..

WOW! WAD A PATTERN YEA?
my mummy was complaining the whole morning about the 3 little monsters(me, sis n bro)

Well, today's morning worship was kinda different?
due to H1N1, we all had cuplets..and the bread of cos..we nida use a pincher!
its kinda hard to pinch the bread using that pincher yea? I think i seriously nid some practice for that? hahaha! my sis was so embarrassed as she took a longer time than others to pinch the bread out.

The morning ministry's talk by uncle chee hwee was an enlighting one.
NOTHING IS LOST!! the assembly treasures the teens so much and I really hope that in 10 years down the road, the church will continue to grow n glow!!

yeah, den today aunty helen went through the 2 kings 3..She emphasised alot about the friends that we are going to mix/mingle with..that they are preferably to be christians when she talks about King of Israel, Judah and Edom allies together..Yup..but i was wondering dat if we mingle with friends that are only christians..how can personal evangelism take place? Its good to mix around with non-christians friends too as we are able to enlarge our circle of friends and share with them the gospel when opportunity comes. The only thing that we must be careful is not to get influenced by some of their negative attitudes. and thats all. So i dun find any problem having non-christians friends...studying with them..seriously.

today's piano lesson was quite a funny one. mdm lim, my piano tchr..she was toking abt the sliming talk experience. She told me that a guy can lose 30kg over 5weeks or so by taking those organic stuffs..she said that the daily diet has to be replaced by 4 packets of organic stuffs and one simple meal to slim down..she spent about 15mins or so talking about it when im stucked with the contrary motion (chromatic scale) starting on C and F#. I just kept on laughing at her expression and her posture. YEAH..ENTERTAINING indeed =X after the lsn end, i called my mum, she wanna noe how i fare for today's lsn. So i asked mdm lim whtr im ok a not..den she says NO!! reason being I was still not prepared for exams.. :/ horrible yea? told you i suxs in piano/keyboard. anw, my mum just orh horr and ask me to go home and practice somemore.

Today i was LATE for ushering duty. Well, mag sent me a "funny" msg while i was on the bus..Cos i forgt wad time i shld be there for duty, so i asked her if its 545pm. This was wad she said,
" Huh, isnt it lyk any other timings? IDK. Ask kenneth then HAHAHah. Nvm lah, see you later then"

-.-" isnt it? Anw, i reached there around 555pm. I fell almst asleep during the gospel msg..the speaker is merely chanting spells into my ears..i really duno wad he's trying to say..FORGOT the whole message! =x After the service ends, uncle tk says that he had a meeting with me..he points at me..I was so scared!! i tot he caught me slping so he wanna meet me and tok to me one on one..oh no..haha! but it wasnt true! cos its just prayer mission grp meeting! haha! wad a frightening moment.

-THATS all the HAPPENINGS for today-

Pause for a thought..
have you readers ever wondered why i wrote about korkor when im in love wif JJ only?
I dun lyk korkor really as for now..cos..apparently hes attached already n i dun have that crazy special feelings when we're together doing things..but i dunnoe if he and I keep on chilling out together and doing stuffs and things together..i seriously dunno wad will happen. I haf a feeling that when im out with another guy, he doesnt seems to lyk it thou he looks perfectly ok..for instance..when he caught me with my son that time..Yeah..he was giving me that "ok?" look.
Well, hopefully i wun feel so helpless when he's out there bullying me (i.e. taking my stuffs and dun return me.. etc) Yeah..

I realised that the thought of JJ never fails to keep appearing in my mind ever since he stepped into my life..Today when i was on my way home, i longed to haf him beside me..to accompany me..to joke with me and stuffs..sigh..if only we could be together...

Korkor was the person that i could see almost everyday..yet he wasnt at my mind all the times..but JJ was the person that i couldn't see at all..yet he was on my mind all the time..

BIG sigh! and i tot if something childish..i was wondering wad if i had a decent guy walking and being close with me and JJ saw it..i seriously hope that he wld react n be disappointed..HAHA! but somehow ive got a feelin that he doesnt care at all..

Im so confused..i think at the moment now..i should not think about him..I wanna let him go..but i failed...so many attempts..(attempted to let go of him that time when i didnt talk to him for the whole of 6 months..but i failed..i missed him too much..I kept thinking about the time he pretended to be JJ's friend on msn..just to talk to me..I felt so sad..i dun wan him to do this..) Aargh...I JUST CANNOT get over wif him unless a nice/decent/attractive guy appears to me and showed deep love for me..mabbe i could stop thinking about JJ for a while..MAY BE..

Letting go of him is hard becos I always believe that we'll meet on a special day in a special place..

hmm..thats just all my random thoughts people..
pray for me yea?

BYE READERS (enjoy the new week)